NOTICE WHEN WE’RE AWARE WITH THE WRONG ATTITUDE
Yogi: One morning I was mindfully doing my housework. Not long after, an agitation arose and it lasted the whole day.
Sometimes when I meditate, I do get this agitation too. I stopped and watched this agitation, but it is hard for me to watch it.
Sayadaw: Awareness is not difficult; you can see that this experience is happening.
It is hard means that you cannot get what you want. You want the agitation to go away, right?
It is never hard to be aware because knowing that this is happening and that is happening is very obvious.
Hard means that you want to get rid of the agitation but you cannot get it.
To be aware of the suffering experience is not hard because you already know.
Everybody’s question now is that awareness is the problem. We’re aware, aware, aware, but it is not working. It means that we’re aware with the wrong attitude.