Yogi: During working meditation, I panicked a little from doubt, greed and aversion. And I recalled Sayadaw telling a yogi to just leave it to the Dhamma.
You don’t get involved with the defilements but just do your job of being aware. This was a big release and joy arose when I realized that I didn’t have to overcome the defilement.
Sayadaw: In the beginning, it’s all about me – we suffer is ‘me’, the practice is ‘me’ and all we know is ‘me’. Then, we practice and we see that what we’re observing is not ‘me’ and eventually we’ll see that the practicing is not ‘me’ also – everything is just processes.
When there is momentum, we see this more and more clearly – everything has its own momentum. Then, there’s a real understanding of anatta, that everything is just cause and effect.
When you feel there is a good momentum, just stop observing and then you will see observing is still happening by itself.
When we’re very involved in being mindful, the practice can get very strong, but we’re still involved in the practice. We don’t see that the practice is happening.
Sometimes, when there is that much momentum, it helps to stop observing; and then you see that it is doing it. Then, you see that there is a cause and effect that brings that momentum.