Yogi: In the evening, I was calmly doing walking meditation and investigated the unpleasant energy field in my shoulder. The unpleasantness in the body got stronger and stronger, but I couldn’t see any reaction in the mind.
Finally, I stopped watching the mind and noticed that the tension in the shoulder went back to normal.
I was surprised that I couldn’t see the reaction in the mind; it was like the doors were closed.
Sayadaw: It is okay. You’re already seeing quite a lot.
When you check the mind, check if the mind has an idea of how it thinks aversion will represent itself. So, do not to have an idea what you think you will find when you look for the reaction to the unpleasantness.
Theoretically, the logic is when it is getting more unpleasant, there must be more reaction in the mind. But if the mind thinks that the reaction must be seen in a certain way, it might be off focused – the reaction might be there but you’re not seeing what is there because you’re expecting to see something else.
It could also be possible that the mind is not reacting because you describe the sensation as an energy field, which represents that the mind doesn’t see it as a solid block of unending pain. It sees its nature more, then it could be body-based without the mind reacting, not something that is influenced by the mind.