Yogi: I could notice the seeing, and when awareness was strong, there was awareness of awareness of seeing.
It was a different level of awareness where the defilements couldn’t stay and were not personal. That was exciting and scary because it was so powerful.
Should I go there when the awareness is strong enough and not otherwise?
Sayadaw: It is only scary because it is a new experience. When you see it more often, you will get used to it.
Yes, go with the flow and whatever is natural for the mind. Recognizing seeing and looking is a powerful practice because it is what we do all day long. That really helps to bring awareness into our lives.
When you recognize the awareness of seeing or notice that seeing is happening, you don’t have to try so hard to be aware. Also, bring in the right thought that it is nature, not personal – then, wisdom is also working in every awareness.