Yogi: When there was aversion to the pain in the moment, I realized that it was greed for something else. I was a little sad that the moment couldn’t be okay.
I felt choked up treating the moment how it was, and then, I was grateful for how it was – it wasn’t perfect, but it was what I had. But, I’m still struggling with the experience.
Sayadaw: Forget about the greed; just be aware of the present moment as it is. Stay with the awareness because if we’re aware, we’ll recognize greed when it arises. We need to grow the awareness so that it can be ever ready.
It is like when we run a shop, we don’t chase after our favorite customer so that when others come to buy, we are not around. We should sell to whoever comes to the shop; just keep the shop open and stay there.
It’s like your mind has a target – it thinks ‘I didn’t see it and I should see it’ and it starts to look for it.
Meditation is not trying to look for something. Meditation is waiting to see what is arising now.