REALITY IS NEVER BORING – THE TRUTH IS ALWAYS INTERESTING

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Yogi: I was lost in thought and there was a lot of anger; it started when I became angry with someone at home. I realized that this mood attracted everything that would make me angry.

I also realized how much all the anger is related to selfing, all the time.

Sayadaw: That’s right. It’s very interesting, once the aversion is there, it finds its object and finds things to be averse about.

When you see the truth of what aversion does, it is not personal. The truth is always interesting.

When you see reality like that, when you see the nature of things, no matter how many times you see it, it is always fresh and interesting because it is so real and fascinating.

PRACTICE LONG, PRACTICE PERSISTENTLY AND THE WHOLESOME WILL GROW

Swiss Retreat 2019 Group Interviews 18 (1:26:50-1:28:35)

Yogi: Walking out by the creek this foggy morning, I had a quick moment of happiness just to be in the moment and everything was okay.

It makes me realize that the practice works despite all the difficult times – there are moments which give me faith.

Sayadaw: Practice long, practice persistently and the wholesome will grow.

BE WILLING TO FACE THE CHALLENGING SCENARIO

Swiss Retreat 2019 Group Interviews 18 (1:30:34-1:35:00)

Yogi: I was calm and watching thoughts come and go; suddenly there was a negative thought about my daily life. I felt and saw the aversion and nothing special happened – I was happy about that.

Then the mind said that the thought would come again and again and the calm would go down.

I would like to rehearse and prepare for this repeating negative thought. Whenever I’m in that situation, I lose the calm and wise way of seeing it – I don’t want to have it and get impatient with it.

Is it possible to rehearse going through it again and again and discover all layers of what is going on?

Sayadaw: It will keep coming until you understand it. Welcome it so that you can understand it.

You won’t lose, you will profit from it. Let it come and you’ll learn something from it.

Just even being aware of it is a profit. Whether we’re aware of it or not, it’ll come.

Yogi: Can I rehearse it because I’m afraid of falling in the old patterns because I’m so used to reacting that way?

Sayadaw: Yes, you can rehearse but you’ll still find yourself getting carried away, but it is okay. Don’t be afraid – we’ve already got carried away so many times.

Now, you’ve set up an intention – you’ll remember to come out of it faster. You lose yourself and you’ll remember faster and you’ll remember faster and faster. And then, you’ll understand more and more.

Be willing to face it and then it’ll get better.

ADJUST THE ATTITUDE TO SEE FROM THE PERSPECTIVE OF NATURE

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Yogi: When I watch aversion, I often feel that it is my aversion. It is very difficult to feel that it is aversion not around this person who is bad.

Sayadaw: Remind yourself to try and adjust your attitude that this is nature.

Adjust the attitude and observe, adjust the attitude and observe – do that often.

BE SIMPLE AND OPEN WHEN WE’RE AWARE

Swiss Retreat 2019 Group Interviews 17 (56:25-1:02:37)

Yogi: In the evening, I was calmly doing walking meditation and investigated the unpleasant energy field in my shoulder. The unpleasantness in the body got stronger and stronger, but I couldn’t see any reaction in the mind.

Finally, I stopped watching the mind and noticed that the tension in the shoulder went back to normal.

I was surprised that I couldn’t see the reaction in the mind; it was like the doors were closed.

Sayadaw: It is okay. You’re already seeing quite a lot.

When you check the mind, check if the mind has an idea of how it thinks aversion will represent itself. So, do not to have an idea what you think you will find when you look for the reaction to the unpleasantness.

Theoretically, the logic is when it is getting more unpleasant, there must be more reaction in the mind. But if the mind thinks that the reaction must be seen in a certain way, it might be off focused – the reaction might be there but you’re not seeing what is there because you’re expecting to see something else.

It could also be possible that the mind is not reacting because you describe the sensation as an energy field, which represents that the mind doesn’t see it as a solid block of unending pain. It sees its nature more, then it could be body-based without the mind reacting, not something that is influenced by the mind.

BE CONTENT TO BE MINDFUL AND THE LEARNING WILL HAPPEN

Swiss Retreat 2019 Group Interviews 17 (1:21:20-1:28:35)

Yogi: When there is no strong greed or aversion, I’m still attentive, but I notice the energy getting lower and I’m not so content with that, but I don’t have any real useful means to investigate.

Sayadaw: If the mind always has the right attitude, like it is always simple, just beginner’s mind all the time, it is content to just be mindful and it doesn’t matter if the moment is calm or otherwise, if it just likes to be mindful continuously, even that will help the mind to learn.

If you’re mindful continuously, if it has momentum and we take care of the cultivation of awareness, the rest of the mind will do its own work. But the mind has to be content.

RECOGNIZE THAT OLD HABITS TAKE TIME TO CHANGE

Swiss Retreat 2019 Group Interviews 16 (08:00-12:03)

Yogi: I took a long hike yesterday – I was feeling really joyful, sometimes with grasping. When I returned, thoughts were going wild and I realized that it was self-doubt and all about the self, like if I was a good yogi.

Sayadaw: There are some qualities of the mind, some activities of the mind, which are such a habit of the mind that it takes time to understand them and to become free of them.

Yogi: It will still take a lot of time.

Sayadaw: Only practice one day at a time.

Whether you’re a good or a bad yogi, it is fine just as long as you’re a yogi.

NO OBSERVATION IS EVER WASTED

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Yogi: The mind goes back so often to my childhood and adolescence, especially on retreat, for hours and hours. I recall memories and make them up again and again, all the people, relatives and things.

This goes on and on and on – it’s like the mind is chewing on it, especially before sleeping, like a lullaby. I can’t make out what is behind it, why my mind is so interested in these old stories.

Sayadaw: You will find it. It is not for nothing – there is something the mind is attached to; that is why it comes back over and over again.

As you observe, you’ll see.

WHEN THE DEFILEMENTS ARE SUBTLE AND THE MIND GETS BORED

Swiss Retreat 2019 Group Interviews 17 (1:26:45-1:27:41)

Yogi: It is like a stagnation when the defilements are subtle and the mind gets a little bored. How can I investigate when there are no strong inputs to observing?

Sayadaw: Even when we continue to be mindful and the mindfulness gains momentum, we’ll still have moments when we go up and we go down; and every time we go up and down, there is a chance for the mind to investigate why it goes up, why it goes down.

From that learning, and when all those other insights about our practice become steadier, that’s when the practice starts to feed itself and we keep progressing.

But before that, we have to make some effort to explore and learn.

SELF CONSCIOUSNESS CREATES TENSION

Swiss Retreat 2019 Group Interviews 18 (16:22-17:50)

Yogi: When walking, I could feel some stiffness in my lower back; it was particularly stiff when I crossed path with Sayadaw along the corridor.

Sayadaw: The selfing creates tension. When we’re alone, it is not so obvious; when somebody passes us, it becomes more obvious because once there is another, there has to be a self.

LETTING THE PRACTICE HAPPEN BY ITSELF

Swiss Retreat 2019 Group Interviews 18 (22:34-27:40)

Yogi: During working meditation, I panicked a little from doubt, greed and aversion. And I recalled Sayadaw telling a yogi to just leave it to the Dhamma.

You don’t get involved with the defilements but just do your job of being aware. This was a big release and joy arose when I realized that I didn’t have to overcome the defilement.

Sayadaw: In the beginning, it’s all about me – we suffer is ‘me’, the practice is ‘me’ and all we know is ‘me’. Then, we practice and we see that what we’re observing is not ‘me’ and eventually we’ll see that the practicing is not ‘me’ also – everything is just processes.

When there is momentum, we see this more and more clearly – everything has its own momentum. Then, there’s a real understanding of anatta, that everything is just cause and effect.

When you feel there is a good momentum, just stop observing and then you will see observing is still happening by itself.

When we’re very involved in being mindful, the practice can get very strong, but we’re still involved in the practice. We don’t see that the practice is happening.

Sometimes, when there is that much momentum, it helps to stop observing; and then you see that it is doing it. Then, you see that there is a cause and effect that brings that momentum.

WHEN WE SEE THE VALUE OF LEARNING, WE WILL PERSIST

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Yogi: I’m trying to be aware now because I usually get lost during interviews and looking at the benefits of being aware, it is quite amazing. The mind feels broader and can receive more information; and I’m not so tense.

In everyday life, it can be quite fun to be mindful if I could see the benefits. I tried to be aware in daily life, but I didn’t look at the benefit and would let go of the awareness because it was a lot of work to be mindful.

I can see the benefits now: my mind is less tired and more open, and I can get more information without losing out on what others are saying. It is quite amazing.

Sayadaw: Great. Just for that, this retreat has been worth it. When we see the value of the practice, we’ll keep doing it.

BITS OF WISDOM ARISE WHEN AWARENESS IS CONSISTENT

Swiss Retreat 2019 Group Interviews 18 (10:02-12:30)

Yogi: Today’s sit was like a shift after an hour. Everything changed when my perception changed – the awareness and object were still there.

The pain changed – it retreated to the background, and I could sit another hour. I never could do that before and I was happy.

When I opened my eyes, the thought came that everything I saw was falling apart – only processes going on. I felt happy.

Sayadaw: We just have to gather all these little bits of wisdom – we have to always allow them to arise by being mindful.

RIGHT ATTITUDE TOWARDS CULTIVATING AWARENESS

Swiss Retreat 2019 Group Interviews 17 (1:27:52-1:28:40)

If the mind can maintain the right attitude – like it is always simple, just beginner’s mind all the time, it will help the mind to learn.

If we are content to be mindful and it doesn’t matter whether the moment is calm or otherwise, if we just like to be mindful continuously, even that will help the mind to learn.

If we take care of the cultivation of awareness, the rest of the mind will do its own work. But we have to be content.

A REMINDER FOR LONG-TIME YOGIS ON MOMENTUM

Swiss Retreat 2019 Group Interviews 17 (1:29:14-1:30:50)

Practicing for many years doesn’t mean that we’ve been practicing continuously. If we have, our practice changes over the months and years.

In the beginning we’re just following instructions, then things start to shift – we don’t have to do things the same way we used to, and we have to recognize those changes and allow for them.

Sometimes, we don’t have to be trying so hard and making ourselves so tense. We learn the basic principles, but we have to start to see what is happening now and learn for ourselves.

For some of us who are not practicing continuously – we have an intensive practice for a while followed by a relaxed period and repeating that, then it progresses in a different way.

Every time we relax, there is a decreasing of the results that come with momentum; and when we restart intensive practice, it’s like we have to gather the momentum again. We have to accept that we’re almost like beginners again.

We can be more accepting of it if we understand that this is the process.